Liquid thoughts...........

Moving on.....

2012-02-01T08:46:00.000-08:00

I've closed the door

on all the hurt and pain

wishing it on no one ...

being.. not left the same...

moving on...spirits high....

with wings expanded......

as an eagle soars... I will fly..

I smile again...

for I'm secure...

there'll be another

beckoning at my hearts door...

and for that one

I'll be his QUEEN...

supremely raising him

through all his dreams....

regretting not what went before

but, knowing when to close the door..

Thankful for this second chance..

to live in LOVE and be romanced.

When Hades call....

2010-12-15T16:39:00.000-08:00

As hades door is beckoning..false peace within the darkness

the rugged cares of this world...pushing you along it's suggestive path

Death is easy says the gatekeeper come within find your freedom at last

One soul split...colliding as the two are fighting..the 'light' says LIFE is hard

there's no changing that....but, the peace you are after....are you willing for

Mary to weep? have you commissioned Martha to moan? will you be responsible

for the raindrops that pour from the Master's throne?

Life is given to be LIVED! do not succumb to deaths will...that Hades will surely instill

once you go beyond that gateway...no turning back is there...no JOY or LAUGHTER

that softens the way for hardships to pass. no freedom..only finality at the end

of that path.

Don't be fooled by the seduction of no more cares...for deaths cold fingers will strangle

you...unawares....so LIVE your life, don't just exist....for hades waits .....regardless...

in the mist......

Disillusioned

2010-12-03T14:37:00.000-08:00

What does it mean when you cannot trust yourself?

When you were blindsided by that 'one' and your

Spirit left you...hypnotized..and disloyal...like a magnet

Drawn to that someone else...you did not see the warning

signs...did not see the flashing lights...for when your soul

connected the energy was so brilliant...wrong would have looked

like right...so lulled by this beautiful nightmare...now

pain has become your pleasure...just to keep them there

for the lost of that one is the tragedy most feared.

Thus your soul bleeds...continuously...a wound raw and open

no gauze deep enough to saturate the ache

in each brief moment of distraction you find the greatest reprieve

and though succinct....these moments, you struggle to appreciate

you beg time to stop...to rewind itself...a futile discussion for time

is non-discerning and likes you no more nor less than some

stoic it is...jealous of everyone. So you question your spirit and you

plead to understand...why it left you helpless...vacant, as Wolffia in a barren land

the answer...no, the 'dilemma' that has been found

is when you cannot trust yourself...in a world full of people

...there is no one around.

Love kills....

2010-11-30T14:40:00.000-08:00

Dying slowly...looking you in the eye...
you did this to me...
My heart slows with every tear
caused by your lie...
as I become weaker and weaker..
it's harder to wonder why...
I allowed myself to succumb
to your melodious lullaby...
You caught me unaware...
off guard...and full of hope...
You showed me what could be...
without telling me what was...
and now you've left me
in a sea of disillusionment
adrift and afloat
I gave you every fiber...
that was in me to give...
my faith utterly complete...
Did you see this in me?
that I would give my all...
knowing you would not catch me...
but would be the one to cause my fall?
Broken Heart...wrecked spirit...
my soul upon the wind...
closing this door forever...
for although it freely left...
LOVE did not enter in.

LOVE.....unsheltered

2010-11-23T16:40:00.000-08:00

Heart splitting....no recourse...

one thing wanted more than most...

will it be?....soul is tired

who will put out this fire?

Never knew what it could be

Before I had a taste of thee

Mind and body melted within me

Heart unchained..you walked through

unable now to close that door

my senses changed forevermore

So simple it could be..me with you and

you with me.....

Beautiful Nightmare...

2010-11-23T15:53:00.000-08:00

Heart beating it skips a chord when I hear your voice
It's like a symphony to my soul...my skin tingles
when you're near..a whispered breath across
my ear... my body quivers from your touch..
crying out in anguish for more...you are my sixth
sense enveloping my aura...deeply and completely
I hate you and I love you for how you make me feel
A beautiful nightmare...perhaps should have been
left a dream...for they fade without memory
upon the rising sun..you wreck havoc in my spirit before
my day's begun..I want you and I need you...
mind, body, core...and yet I despise the knife you left
at my hearts door...droplets of my hope spilled about your steps...
my trust in you complete...no hesitancy left...
where that crystal ball was, or witches brew...
to warn me of the things...I wish I knew...now suffering in defeat
My soul left bare...yet eyes tightly shut...with clenched fist
...I still feel you there

memories....

2010-09-03T17:38:00.000-07:00

Wistful remembrance
of things that once were
Soul trembles…
cloaked in sorrow’s fur
The greatness
of what could have been
Perhaps will never be…
forever cemented
My heart is where
I shall find thee
Laughter to hide behind,
leaving the pieces unseen
Smiles…to catch the tears
of a wistful dream…

Love Lost

2010-07-22T15:54:00.000-07:00

Whispering souls upon the wind
Unfound loves withering
Discontent...yet they stay...
For the love they lost...
lingers...on...every...day
No more tears...no more fight...
The wrong pursued...deemed as right
Settled in now assured...
Love's door to open...nevermore
The risk of which...was to great
Mind...body...soul..bowed under the weight
Though you said you never would
The first real challenge...un-withstood
Heart...forlorn...don't you see?
You have indeed...abandoned me.
'Ariesemblem'

Love's hold

2010-07-22T03:44:00.000-07:00

If I looked into your soul,
would I see myself there?
Hand in your hand...
rocking in two rocking chairs...
What the present ripped away...
is the future willing to spare?
Reaching out to touch you
as I beg the memories to fade
cursed be to me when
you stumbled in my heart that day
We cannot change the past
and as the future glides that way...
how selfish would I be..
if I asked for you to stay...hurting
From the moments in that day you walked away...
the causalties added up in such a disarray...
life wields a two-edged sword
To be certain we'll obey...
but, what it'll never pierce...
what will always be...
future...present...past...the love I hold for thee... 'Ariesemblem'

Untitled

2010-07-13T15:41:00.000-07:00

Eyes tightly shut
I feel the essence
of what you bring
I feel the laughter
I feel your touch
I feel as though
I cannot get enough
I feel the exasperation
I feel the....Trust
I feel as though
I cannot get enough
I feel your truth
I feel your care
I know you cannot
always be near
thoughts of you
bring a smile
the strength of you
drives my greed
and I cannot get enough
insatiable you leave me
thus I feel you're the only one
that can fill my need
with you it seems
I cannot get enough

'FREE'

2010-07-13T15:21:00.000-07:00

Secure......you thought...your hold on me
eyes off the prize and now I'm free
my soul is purged...my system empty of thee
Arms spread wide with anticipation of what will be
so intense...my love so strong...blinded
to the point...you could do no wrong...
Now I clearly see the past...
should have known it wouldn't last...
warning signs blowing in the wind
like 'flags'...this is no amusement park...
this is life...your battles I stood ready to fight...
I put down the armor...I've let you go...
For who you are...is the one I didn't know...
If I could have seen the future;
would there now be a past? Life is but,
an hour glass...and though looking I could not see...
for the embodiment of you enveloped me
I could not breathe...you were...
my beautiful nightmare...and now
I have risen from my dream...so with
every breath...I breathe new air...
and with a slight smile, fleeting wonderment
if your aware...the two of us would have
made and extraordinary pair! Thus not meant to be..
I will not languish over thee
for there is someone...out there
much more worthy of me...and thus I say goodbye
refusing to 'sleep-walk' for thee.

'The Brink'

2010-07-13T15:14:00.000-07:00

Tears waiting at the edge...
Filling up my window wells...
Seeing thru blurred sight...
Counting all the wrongs... to right
Is this kharma reaching me...
My writhing soul in front of thee...
Do you laugh behind that smirk?
I shake my head from all the hurt
Placing what I could in you... I tried
My best to see it through...Are you clear
with what you've done? Do I lack the courage
to enlighten everyone? It is not you that holds me back
It is the wickedness that I lack...for to
Destroy you is not my goal...If you
release me..have faith...your happiness
will unfold...I cannot bear the sight of you
my mind goes back to what you put me through
I could not shake the past...therefore our ruture
could not last. holding on to what's not there
would be a tragic weight to bear...so as I hold
back my tears and turn from you at last...I leave
the hurt...the throbbing pain...the memories in the past.

Quickie (LOL)

2010-07-03T10:42:00.000-07:00

If your willing ...and I'm able
Can I take you...on this table?
Salt n pepper to the floor...damn! Shhhh is..is
that the door?...lot's of noise
and giggling...wait...not there I'll get it in
If you please me..don't you stiop..well (pause)
not unless you've hit the 'spot'
Can you have me? Daddy pleaseeee...my legs
are spread...to your Knees! Head thrown back
Yes..I feel it..keep it still just right there
...making sure your tongues aware..
fingers clenched at the edge...
ass is huring..where's that bed?! LOL
Wait a minute don't you move...
damnit daddy i'm in ah groove...
aaaaahhhhh SH**! you did it again! I'll see you soon...what?
you askn when?
A gentle whisper in your ear
'you number one' let's get that clear...
but, don't call me...
I'll call u -boo
now there's the door...
Cause..I've got work
to do!

'Ariesemblem'

Collaboration

2010-07-03T10:08:00.000-07:00

Why is it that you reach me so?
Have our past lives touched years ago?
my body craves to be with yours...
my mind the same for it adores....
the challenge of your creativity..makes
me reach for what's in me..
the depth of which unsurpassed...I marvel at
what I sense in thee and if you'll let me see...
will you trust enough to bring
me... to your brink...and let our minds collapse
the force of what we could bring....unseen preseent ..
unseen past...an ingenuity they've never know
and hope their frail minds will not be blown
as they're led to higher thoughts expressed daring
them to comprehend as we broaden their meager intellects....

RAIN

2010-06-22T03:21:00.000-07:00

My soul lay open for the rain
To wash away this heartfelt pain
Coursing through my soul and vein.
Thunder cries I feel its ROAR!
Wanting for the pain no more.
Lightening CRASHES!...flashing lights...
The wind to blow away my strife.
Will I sway as I stand still..
will this Storm breech my will...
eyes closed tears mixed with rain...
a smile for if we meet again...
another future......another past,
maybe then we're meant to last......
and as this STORM subsides and the flowers grow...
my soul will heal and my heart will hurt no more..

In Captivity....

2010-06-22T03:19:00.000-07:00

My body moving of it's own accord
away from reason...just wanting yours
not caring who..what..where..why..or when
purely the anticipation of you entering in
you filled my soul..with no scope left..
how do I take the chance on someone else?
Is it fair to leave me in this way?
my trust in you, complete...from that very day
No raison d'etre just spirit free..closed my eyes
to be enveloped by thee..does this come for a lifetime?
or merely a day? brought by one? or is there another
who can breach me in this way?
I ask myself questions...there are no answers to...
fierce and independent..desiring to be ruled by you.
Do you know? are you aware?
when I close my eyes I feel you there..
my body shudders..my mind in disbelief...the intensity of which
I can find no reprieve. How shall I escape how shall I get through..
my mind...my body...held captive...by you.

Letting go......

2010-06-22T03:16:00.000-07:00

Like a whirlwind you came...disrupted my 'sane'
A lot to lose...I lost...but, so much more to gain
The possibilities were endless...you and I
Two souls combined
Damn...we could've touched the sky!
My mind and yours...crashing through doors
Never thought still now...you'd be seeping through my pores
I shake my head...clear my thoughts...still find no peace
Just dreaming of 'togetherness' and the intense 'release'
Why?..why?..why?...wings spread wide as I struggle to fly
They were clipped the day you made me cry...as I tumble
slowly down...feeling the hurt...pieces of me scatter to earth
Did you not feel? How could you not see...here I pause...
Are you even worthy of me? As I break my fall...the tears still
flow...my feet touches ground...as I let you go...the light
inside...though dim...never blew...I cannot convince you of something you knew...and so I proceed...more cautious now
feet planted firmly on the ground...knowing already that I'll
be okay...for the strength of my 'light' is enough...to guide my way.

Are you ready?

2010-06-22T03:08:00.000-07:00

Hey....psst! you gonna ride with me on this ride they call LIFE?!
They say it goes UP..it goes DOWN!....there's twists and turns
they say it's worse than a merry-go-round...you might get dizzy
you may even throw up! But, I'll be damned if i'm sittinng back with HALF a
cup....or even half a PIE...you better believe I'm gonna ride this ride!
Do you think you can hang with me? You can't wait...no sir....don't you see?
Your either in LINE or your with ME! Cause I've got that FAST PASS!
I'm not standing with my head up.....watching others scream...as they
pursue and reach their DREAMS! Come on now....your moving SLOW!
drop your bags and let's GO! It'll still be locked up when we come back....
yeah...when we're old...sitting in our rockers...reminiscing about the day we decided to take
that ride and never look BACK! Our life was THEIR entertainment! Yes sirrrr
that's a FACT! Now we rest...cause we did our thing! and oohhhh the sweet memories it BRINGS!....eyes closed...hand in hand....I would've take that RIDE with no other man.

2010-03-23T19:35:00.000-07:00

Haiti's Lost

Broken faces..broken dreams..broken hopes of a world barely seen
whispers of distant laughter...lost upon the wind
Eyes staring wide that will never 'see' again
dirt painted faces some twisted in pain
their breath taken from them...never to breathe again
remember the yelling..remember the cries
remember the joy that once filled their lives
for youth is our innocence...we're only there for a time
ours not taken from us...we look to the past
a smile brought briefly of moments passed
This smile will never be seen on their face
never to move beyond that moment in space
Life ripped away...beyond awful it seems..laid to unrest
broken spirits...lost shadows...shattered dreams
As the tears come forth...of images seen..
eyes squeezed tightly..gasping..why lord?...berating
what does this mean? Your children...why did you give them
just to take them away...they're life not lived but barely a day?
I scream at you...fist in the wind...don't you ever my GOD let this happen again!

~Ariesemblem

'In your dreamz'

2010-01-09T14:43:00.000-08:00

Chocolate sunset..black as night..
lick me..when the mood is right...
African Goddess...beauty queen...
Sleep awhile..I'll be your dream...
Cheek bones high...lips are full...
Let me know if you really would...
touch me there....be aware...
my scent will have drawn you here...
Skin so soft...smooth as shea...
Your hands felt gliding...every...way...
Statuesque...nothing less...
can you handle nature's best?
If you dare...come prepared...
Succulent feasting... to be ...your fare...
Your arms stretched forth...with which to touch...
Knowing still...I may...be to much...
Darkness waning...earth is still...
Can you bring me forth at will?
eyes still closed...rest awhile...
Once fluttered open...off I'll glide...
Until the night...with your slumber...
You bring me forth...with dreams of wonder...
Touching souls in sensual bliss ...as you wake...
Your lips I kiss...

'self' freedom

2010-01-09T14:13:00.000-08:00

- exclusion of self

Tears streaming forth...
where is the sun....
brow beaten down....
forgetting how it begun...
lost my way..in your 'self'
it's time to be free...
needing to step away...
so I can be me...
To much time to much effort...
my soul almost crushed...
now shivering..at the mere..
thought of your touch...
how did it come to this...
two strangers as one...
going down a path...
that should never have begun...
Love at first sight?
what does that even mean...
Barred from my own path...
losing half my dreams.

What is Rap?

2009-09-16T18:42:00.000-07:00

Is it a life style? or is it....
an attack on women..'bitch-this' an
attack on men? 'Bitch-ass-Nigga-that'
Is it where the struggle ends...
when the money is flowing in?
Or is it where the real problems begin...
living up to the 'style' you've written in?
Was it your life?..are you true to the core? or
Just trying to sell rhymes and nothing more...
Are you chasing that dollar or are you
Chasing your dreams or will you end up
like Micheal in 'scream' Do we have the right...
the right to question you... when the
Little boys are sagging their pants
and the girls have switched from 'double-dutch'
to a little ass................lap dance?
Can you explain yourself? Why is Rap ...Hip-hop..and sex
the only thing that sells? you in the studio....
mike to your mouth...all you....shall I say it?
Niggas...in the same boat...every other line talkn bout
A young girls 'deep throat'. Is this how you live your lives or
is it all just a smoke screen? Pen to paper to studio to stage...
Are those words of inherent rage?
Is this the life you live? For some...I'm sure...no doubt
your writing bout the only thing you know about.
You got his name..but know nothing about him...
Why would you? locked up since you were seven
What was that life you lived?
Little sister slept with you...cause she had no crib...
Mom workn that money...just tryn to survive...
Barely knowing where u were....walkn 'cake' street
in that tattered faux-fur...so I can understand that anger
that animosity...at the life you were dealt...
not the life you agreed...searching for a way to be free..
you turned it into creativity....But, you've left that life...it's been a little bit
have you progressed your lines...or is everything 'stilled' mirrored thru the
image of the same sh*t...is this a double standard? Using words
that you'd use...or is this the only way to get through to you?
Through my steel lenses...I know this is fu-tile...nothing will change
Would it even be worthwhile? So, for you invisible ink rappers...continue
your lies...and for you who've lived the other side.....
long live ....Rap...and Hip-hop....For it will never 'truly' die.

That Perfect Space

2009-09-10T15:13:00.000-07:00

Reaching for that perfect space
where I can live my life
tether-free and unbound
no worries nor gripes
A place where I can be myself....
free and anxious-less
A place where no one judges me...
a place..where...I can rest
A place where I express my thoughts..
no matter what they are...
A place of understanding
a place of quiet grace a place where
I can rest assured...
from the rats that run this race.
A place where I can close my eyes...
a place where all is truly 'real'..
A place where words can be silemt
and all one does is 'feel'
Is there even such a place?
or am I searching aimlessly...
blindly looking for something
that isn't meant to be...
Am I to be bound by others' thoughts
projected on to me
The weight of 'their' history
added to my own..without the realizaton
That I should stand alone...
why must I suffer
for the negatives of another's past...
don't you see? this way...the pain
will never pass.
One day to the next
should not be counted by the last.
For each is anew it's own tears and laughter.
Singular to that day...though more will come after
Will I find that Perfect space or am I looking hopelessly..
Knowing if I ever cease to look...
No longer would I be.

Did we meet?

2009-08-28T14:36:00.000-07:00

Have I met you in a previous life?
When mountains roared and winds were strife
When men fought with clubs... and guns were amiss …
for they were future booming sticks
Did I meet you.... when women knew not pretty nails?
And birthing screams could bring deaths’ tears
Did I meet you when guns were blasting overhead?
Feet were bound and young men bled
Did we meet... among billowed skirts.. and heaving bosoms?
Masquerades... and swooning women
Did I meet you when you could not read?
And writing was a figment dream
When your back was bleeding with fingers raw
Taken from me and sent abroad?
Did we meet... under sun kissed skies?
Child-like laughter.... and sweet lullabies?
Cotton candy and carousels. Tell me… does this ring a bell?
Did we meet beyond all space and time?
When thoughts of us were sublime?
Did our souls collide?.... sparking flames?
Smoldering hotter..... than hell’s remains?
Are we intertwined? Two love-lost souls
Cowering.... under life’s forbidden hold
Will u meet me... where the ancients sleep?
And may they rise... as our love weeps
Transcending thru the portals of time
Will we meet as mortals..cloaked in divinity?
Eyes wide shut... Seduced.. by.. the thoughts.. of thee
When we meet my love... Will you know……..tis me?

©2009

Declaration to 'ETAH'

2009-08-27T15:49:00.000-07:00

ETAH…I sense I’m just beyond your grasp…
your seeking to envelop me..
I dodge…I twist…I turn…
to avoid your hold on me
Reaching for that better self
layered deep within….
I cannot accept your embrace
nor let you enter in.
oh..ETAH..I feel….. your sordid breath
upon my neck.. whispering gently..
Mmmm.(thoughtfully)...how sweet you are..
Mouth of a serpent I dare not tilt my head
lest I find out who you are…
Lest you turn my flickering light to dark…
And draw me into your abyss…
Seductive though your world can be
I dare not.. be mesmerized by thee..
So proud I stand…although...alone….
Tempted not by you…
Faith in that flickering light
that deems to pull me thru..
Releasing what you could not seize…
hands clasped upon my breast…
I turn to you and declare….
“Goodbye ETAH…forever..
…HATE..will not live in here”

©2009

Do You Dare?

2009-08-25T16:35:00.000-07:00

"Do you dare to touch me there
bodies molded unaware
sensations rising from within
can you control the space we're in
Breathing sharply can't you see
how I wish to be lost in thee?
Do you have this same desire?
against your loins I feel your fire
Blazing deep from within......
do I open up to let you in?...
to feel the thrust of what you bring?
Can you satisfy this thrist?...unquenched...
carried with me as a curse.
Though gentle you can be...
my body knows there's more to thee...
and that is what I seek .....
unbridled passion....Can you give?
Can you awake my soul to live?
do I? Can I? Will I? Trust you withthis task......
body willing...shuddering within your grasp.....
If I dare .... to let you in
Will you stay and give to me
that which I seek from thee?
Could my trust be safe with you
Will your soul touch mine and pull me thru?
in anguish.....and desire...my body..... then........ collapses into you."

© 2009

The Kiss....

2009-08-13T21:25:00.000-07:00

Lips pressed gently...soft and sexy
deep and sweet...yet with intensity
trying to touch the soul within
seperate heartbeats...beating as twins
mesmerized within your gaze
searching past the mirrored haze
opened mouth beckoning...
down this road that we begin
Essence...buried deep...within
frightened of the unknown things
with one kiss...melted in...forgetting
All but the room held in......

©2009

Black Man May I?

2009-08-12T18:20:00.000-07:00

Blackman may I.......wrap my joy around you,
to ease the pain your going through?
May I caress your bald, faded, low cut....dreaded do
as I look into your eyes and see you?
Blackman may I unshackle the chains that wish to bind,
and untie the ropes that have been twined...
around you?
Blackman may I sit upon your manhood,
as your strong hands caress the small of my back,
may I get lost in the sea of your exploding purity?
Blackman may I ...bare your little warriors
to conquer what they might?
May I stand strong..in front, beside, and behind you while you fight?
Blackman may I stroke your ego,
to bring a smile? and make this life for you, more worthwhile?
May I shed your tear, when you've lost someone close to you?
Blackman may I fill your soul with laughter?
May I brighten up your day?
When I come to you......Blackman
would you bid me stay?
May I kiss the feet you walked on,
during the harrowing moments of your day?
May I lay my head upon your chest?
And feel the depth of your breath?
Blackman may I slowly walk with you along the sands of time,
May I let you know that I am yours and ...You are mine?
Blackman when the sliver hairs of time glisten upon you,
May I hold your hand in mine and wade the water with you?
Blackman when all is said and done, and your gait has lost its vigor...when your breath shallows, and death has come to pull its trigger...
When you walk the walk that will see you through, past this world...it's joys, it's
pains.......as he beckons you; Blackman may I accompany you?

©2009

The Split.....

2009-08-12T05:03:00.000-07:00

Broken shadows of a dream …..
once held in such high esteem
Youth foretold it’s rugged path……
one day knowing it would not last
The growth of two untwined souls………..
stretches forth in the cold
Twisting ….writhing….never meant to stay …
but, searching for that better day
Frustration mounts ….and civility slows…..
Anger must not come to bear
Too much history once was shared……..
laughter once though dimly lit
could not sustain thru this shift
to much history to much pain
to much unforgotten ……..to much blame
the strength of one is not enough
tired now…the roads to rough
little souls ….you’ll be okay…for
what lies a head….is a brighter day.

©2009

Lying Lips........

2009-08-12T04:42:00.000-07:00

Your tongue so split…..
words of love ….
words of hate
you think the words of love…
I should appreciate?
You say…
your everything…
the world to me…
your world so dark….how could that be?
It is not the ‘me’ you love …
it is the ‘thought’ of me…
You don’t have the strength…
to carry the weight of me…
For I am fierce …independent….
full of life and love to be released
Try you have to stifle….
out it seeps…..

©2009

Consume me...............

2009-08-11T23:37:00.000-07:00

Wrap me in your embrace
Tell me that my worlds’ erased
Let me lose myself in your caress
Let me forget every…all…and nothing less
Squeeze me tighter if you will
Making sure my trembles….still
Head rested on your chest….raising
Up…and….down….with every breath
My eyes are closed…not seeing
Not caring ….what outside..holds
With your cheek upon my brow…..
True comfort never felt til now
If for a life time…if only for today
Cherish me forever…in the moment.
In this way.

©2009