Disillusioned

What does it mean when you cannot trust yourself?

When you were blindsided by that 'one' and your

Spirit left you...hypnotized..and disloyal...like a magnet

Drawn to that someone else...you did not see the warning

signs...did not see the flashing lights...for when your soul

connected the energy was so brilliant...wrong would have looked

like right...so lulled by this beautiful nightmare...now

pain has become your pleasure...just to keep them there

for the lost of that one is the tragedy most feared.

Thus your soul bleeds...continuously...a wound raw and open

no gauze deep enough to saturate the ache

in each brief moment of distraction you find the greatest reprieve

and though succinct....these moments, you struggle to appreciate

you beg time to stop...to rewind itself...a futile discussion for time

is non-discerning and likes you no more nor less than some

stoic it is...jealous of everyone. So you question your spirit and you

plead to understand...why it left you helpless...vacant, as Wolffia in a barren land

the answer...no, the 'dilemma' that has been found

is when you cannot trust yourself...in a world full of people

...there is no one around.